my name is michelle jane perez
google tells me that in hebrew, michelle means close to god. jane means Jehovah has been gracious. and that perez means "breach or burst forth"
the decision for michelle as my first name was born from the importance of the name in polish heritage. in poland, there are "name days" which have more significance than birthdays. why the idea of a name is important to me and looking at it from that angle was due to my mother choosing the name of me and youngest brother. dad choose my oldest brother's name, which is larry. so her motives were different from dad's, as it was his name and therefore a legacy name. i was born matthew james perez. matthew means gift of the lord. james has an origin in the word ya`aqob which means to supplant.
ma had looked at the biblical implication of matthew of being changing, and supplanting. matthew meant changing by gods grace, and james meant that i would take shit over.
so they were names that were meant to either grow past, or names associated with a great grandious change. to this day i cant understand which one it is, but im still gonna understand at some point or another.
there are many with those names, born into those names with no choice but given the importance of my heritage and the importance on those words, i needed to know why as they may offer a clue about the parts of me i still don't understand.
what's your name?